I'm frustrated. I've been here almost a full month, and I'm not much further than where I've started. I've babysat 6-10 times already, but I have to use the money for gas, groceries, etc. I haven't gotten a teaching position yet. My parents are frustrating me to the point where I want to move back to Lynchburg. I miss my roommate so much right now. Sean's work is...well, another matter entirely:P I just want someone to hire me so I can earn a living and get out of this doggone house. I love my family, but not when they're breathing down my neck and telling me I need to change and "become an adult" - how can I when they push my buttons and bring out the worst?!
For example, I just had to unplug my laptop from downstairs and come back up to my room because my mom's making comments to me again....and I can't talk back because 1) you just don't do that to parents and 2) my parents would see it as immature and telling me that I need to grow up before I do anything else. I miss having the freedom of going to work at a cruddy job, but making a good living and not having to come home to Mom and Dad telling me what I should be doing and what I'm not doing right! It frustrates me that they're not encouraging - just saying that "you should do this or that" and telling me what I'm NOT doing right and what I SHOULD be changing.....
I need to get out of here. Fast.
Hey Becca,
ReplyDeleteI'm living with my parents, too, and I just wanted to tell you that I can TOTALLY identify with the whole adult child-mom-dad relationship thing. I've been home since mid-July and it was really rough for the first several months. Things aren't perfect now, but they have improved. Around December/January we kinda had a sit down talk about the tension and stress we were all feeling--is there any way you can ask them to be more encouraging? That's so important...for your relationship with them now and in the future.
I hope your mom becomes less controlling as far as the wedding's concerned...I can't imagine having to wait as long as you are! Sometimes 5 months seems too long (Matt proposed at the end of Jan and we're getting married June 27th)...I'll be praying for you!
~Meredith (Webb-soon-to-be-Phillips)