Week 2

The end of another week at my parents' house has completed. Time seems to go by fast for the most part. Dad flew to Vermont to do maple sugaring with my grandparents (jealous!!), and it's very weird not seeing him around the house.

Sean and I went to Venture on Sunday. It was still weird not hearing Bryan or Kyle speak (they've been at other churches for nearly 3 years now.....), but Danny was very knowledgeable in what he talked about. I got to see some old friends and introduce them to Sean. People like Suzanne, Dustin, Zac, Nichole....it felt good to see friendly faces at church again! I'm hoping to talk to the ladies sometime about getting involved in a Bible Study again!

I finally got an email from Fx Co Public Schools about subbing!! I spent the rest of the week checking off everything I needed to have for my orientation meeting (whenever I schedule that one). I had a lovely chest X-ray done (Mom lovingly reminded me that I'll have to do this every year now....marvelous!) and got the results back within 2 days. I copied everything necessary that I had in my portfolio already.

And....

My Certificate of Teacher Licensure just came in the mail!! Whooot! :D I've been waiting for this puppy for months! I'm SO glad I have it now so I can actually put on my applications that "YES!" my license is here!

I went with my Mom to her Bible Study group. It was a little awkward, since she didn't warn me about anything we were going to do. Thankfully she had me put in a group other than hers - easier to share that way! I had a great group of ladies, very challenging to look at the Scriptures again! Oh how I've missed that! The only hard time I had was singing from hymnals and that no one in my group is less than 15 years older than me, except maybe one mom? I'm hoping to go again, but we'll see if I can't find another place to go?

I babysat twice this week. Pulled a/some muscle(s) in my back doing one of them. Thankfully I have a mother that collects drugs and after getting home from babysitting, she gave me 4 Tylenol, 2 Advil, and a heat pack and sent me to bed. In the morning, almost brand new! (Then of course this morning I had to unravel all that love by working in the toddler nursery at church this morning...ouch!)

I have determined I have too much on my mind. I get ideas and theories about things and have a hard time putting them into words. My life is changing around me, there's nothing I can do to stop it, I just have to get in the boat and paddle along with the rest of the world.

Right now, I'm confused about how my mom fits into my life. Don't get me wrong, I love her to pieces, but there are things she says and does that hurt, and trying to explain doesn't work out as planned...ever. I was thinking this morning about my wedding (whenever that blessed date is!), and I realized my mom never told me she was truly happy for Sean and I. She thinks very logically, which is nice at times, but I can't think of any times when she has told me she's truly happy for me. Whenever I try to bring up wedding ideas, she always comes back to the fact that Sean and I still need full time jobs, and that we better not be getting married anytime soon. It really hurts, because as much as I didn't plan my wedding as a child, I still want to be able to look at wedding stuff with my mom and make plans. It wouldn't even matter if I didn't use a single plan we talked about, just to know my mom is supportive of Sean and my wedding and marriage. Is that silly of me?

I honestly just pray right now for a job, an apartment, and a wedding :P I know it sounds silly, but I can't wait to be Sean's wife. I want to be able to cherish all our days together and be there to support him for the rest of our lives.

On that note, I need to go wake my love:) He has a HUGE project due at work tomorrow, and he's taking a nap before he probably pulls an all nighter!