This about sums up what my heart is feeling:
"Being jealous is easy when you think you have nothing; it's when you see your life through Jesus' eyes that you see your blessings..."
Right now it's hard not to be jealous. I have friends that are already married that were engaged after me. I have friends that got engaged in the last 6 months and they're getting married this year. I have friends that chat excitedly about getting jobs and moving to a place of their own. Some friends are even expecting kids of their own!
It hurts, duh. I can't do those things right now. Neither Sean nor I have sustainable jobs to help ourselves, let alone the other person. Honestly I've wondered if I should just go back to Lynchburg for another month and work at the daycare again before the place I was renting at gets sold. True, punching out the numbers shows that it wouldn't be well worth it, but the thought still lingers.
I am too different from my parents - and too alike - to stay at the house much longer. However, no jobs have appeared, which means no apartment, shared or solo, to run to. I think I need to give prayer another shot. A better shot, actually.
Bedtime, unfortunately. Must get up and leave the house by 7am to work tomorrow. At least that means 3 hours of work with one of the most beautiful little girls ever!:)
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